Every kid that goes to school loves summer and spends the whole school year counting the minutes till summer vacation when they are free to spend all day with friends in the sun at the beach or shopping. Don’t get me wrong I was that kid this school year, I knew I would have to have a job, I’m 19 and in college, a job is necessary if I want to afford anything next year. But I was still excited about summer, the sun, my friends, no stress from school it would have been great; if reality hadn’t caught up so quickly. I never had many friends in high school, I had tons of acquaintances, sure, but really no good friends. Until this last year at Western I became best friends with one of those acquaintances.. Other than her I don’t have any close friends in my hometown, all my close friends from college live at least an hour away d they have their own friends at home to hang out with and catch up with. So my summer has been pretty lonely so far. To make matters better my boyfriend is still in Bellingham and since he is doing summer school at the college and working on top of that it is hard to make time together. One plus to not having anybody to hang out with i that me and my sister have become really close really quick, we never got along before but I think we are both old enough to understand that we were born to be friends, we don’t have a choice.
In addition to being without friends, I am in general just without people. I am used to living in the dorms with people always with me i was rarely alone and I came to love the constant company. At home it is me and my sister most of the day and now that my sister got her license she can drive by herself and go visit her boyfriend which leaves me alone again. It’s depressing, I really do think it is making me depressed being so alone and sad and I hate it.
Summer this year is not what I was expecting but in the months to come I plan to make worth while of the alone time and try to not be depressed I want o enjoy this summer. I’ll make some new friends, find a new hobby or two, who knows maybe I’ll even excersize! This summer will not be as terrible in the end as it was in the beginning I am making my self a promise to make a good experience of this sad summer.
So here begins the beginning of the end of my last few days of my freshman year of college. The end of living in the dorms, sharing a shower with 50 other girls, eating the bland dining hall food. The end of living across the hall from my best friends, being surrounded by people I know, people who are in the same position I am in; freshman year. By far the most difficult, stressful, exciting, and the most fun year of my life. I have met so many amazing people, done so many new things. I started this blog, never thought I would do that in my life, and I love it. I love this blog. I also love my boyfriend. This year started out rough for us but I have confidence that that rough patch was the end of our rough patch.
This year I got to fall in love with him all over again.
I moved out of my parents house; granted I will be living there over summer, but this will be the last summer I live with them. Though it is sad to think about how grown up I am… I am also excited to start being an adult, living in my own apartment, grocery shopping, cleaning, budgeting. Yes, I know they still pay for a lot of the things I have to pay for but I am starting to cut loose from that, slowly but I am. I love my parents and they have taught me a lot, so have my friends, new and old, so has my boyfriend. I learned that you can’t just quit on something you love because it gets hard, you have to work to make something happen the way you want it to.
This year was a year I will never forget, I am so thankful that I was lucky enough to be able to have an opportunity like this one and I will never forget my freshman year.
Periods. They suck and we all know it. So here is my rant.
I am very emotional while on my cycle, like super emotional, one of those save the animals commercials and somebody better bring me a jumbo box of tissues. It really hit me when I was watching my favorite show on Netflix, Ghost Whisperer, and the main character, Melinda’s husband dies and she can see his ghost and it’s just so incredibly sad and I lost it. I cried like it was my husband who had died not a man on TV. My boyfriend especially knows to watch his step, if he says one thing wrong it sends me into a tizzy of frustration and sometimes tears. Not to mention all this crying and being sensitive leads to extreme exhaustion, I am always tired.
The physical pains are the worst though… The cramps that leave me in bed in the fetal position at any given moment. I have found that when the cramps hit when you’re not ready for them fetal position makes them feel better, at least that’s my experience, so when they ht me I’m immediately on the ground in a ball. The fact that none of my pants feel like they fit doesn’t help with me being overly sensitive, one look at my normally smooth stomach bulging over the hem of my jeans sends me over the top. Periods make pretty girls feel ugly and it sucks. Another pain is that everything is SORE; my vagina is sore, my back is sore, my boobs are sore, why is everything sore!? Me and my girlfriends call it the “vagina aches” when your vagina is sore and everyone knows that can have the potential to be worse than the cramps!
Not to mention the fact that I constantly want to cuddle with every one and everything. If there is a pillow or stuffed animal near, I’m probably cuddling it, I cuddle with my friends more than is probably acceptable and I know my boyfriend is tired of it. I get so clingy like I never want to let him go I’m always holding his hand or his arm or something. And it’s hard to cuddle and eat at the same time, trust me I know. As hard as I try I can’t do them both even though to need to do them both feels so strong inside me. “MUST HAVE FOOD! BUT WAIT I NEED TO HOLD YOU AT THE SAME TIME!!” Ugh, even I’m annoyed by myself when I’m menstruating. (I hate that word… why did I use it? IDK) Salt and vinegar chips though, I bought like three bags last week and ate them all because I “needed” them. I am my own worst enemy during that week.
If you read my last post you know that I was getting all excited to go to the Seattle Reptile Expo in Renton, Wa yesterday! It was such a blast! We arrived totally unprepared mentally for what this expo was going to be like, there were so many people it was extremely hard to navigate, and unfortunately there were a lot of silly folks who brought their babies in a huge stroller making it harder for the rest of us to get a good look at the critters.So if you intend to visit an expo like this expect a large group of people and to make it easier on yourself show up with a small group of people, I went with three other people and it was hard to stay together in the crowd. in my situation neither me nor my boyfriend likes crowds all that much so by the end of it we were both a little cranky, and the traffic driving home didn’t help any either. But if some Starbucks cant solve crankiness, I don’t know what can.
There were so many vendors there and so many different reptiles, there was even a munchkin cat! Who was very cute by the way. Anyways we knew there would be a lot of people there but the space we were in was just not big enough for all of us. So we went in looked at what we had come to see, EVERYTHING. Ian decided he wanted a bearded dragon so he got one! (picture below). He doesn’t have a name yet but we have been brainstorming like crazy! He is so cute and sweet, he was the runt of his litter so Ian got him for a crazy good price for his age, he is a year old and was half the size of his siblings so we are hoping that means he won’t be getting too much bigger than he is already.
Unfortunately my camera on my phone got all scratched up the day before the expo so the only photos I have to share are the ones my boyfriend took and sent to me.
Lately me and my boyfriend, Ian, have been exploring the ideas of new fun pets. I live in a dorm so pets are out of the picture except for a little fish bowl which I have taken full advantage of I have a Calico Goldfish named Dave and a little guppy who has no name for
no reason at all.
I have a not so slight obsession with turtles and would totally get one if I didn’t live in a dorm, and Ian actually just recently had two Pea Puffers ( super small puffer fish), unfortunately they both got sick and passed away, but they were very fun and cute while he had them and we both miss those two cuties.
Here is what the Pea Puffers look like 🙂 about the size of an actual pea!
back in March Ian and I were in Snohomish and we came across this amazing pet store! It’s like a Pet Co but fancy and better! they didn’t have puppies or kittens but they had all kinds of reptiles and fish and bunnies and hamsters and such. We actually went to that store two days in a row because we loved it there so much, all the employees were so nice and they ll really knew what they were talking about too. Well the second day we went there my boyfriend decided it was a good day to get a new fun pet, to my horror he purchased a tarantula. A Avicularia Versicolor to be exact… Ian’s is only a sling (baby) right now so we don’t know the gender or anything which is tough, a female can live up to 20 years where a male will only live 6 or 7.This is about the size of Ian’s, who he named Zipporah. Not sure on the spelling there though so don’t quote me! But when the little creature rows up it will look a little something like this,some turn out ore blue and some turn out a vibrant magenta color. The scary thing is though a female could reach up to 6 inches across… that’s a big spider, and I am not a fan. But my man loves his little thing so I will try to as well…
I am super excited for May 3rd because there will be a reptile exhibit in Seattle and there will be much more than just reptiles there and I can’t wait! I really do love all animals except for the ones with more than 4 legs… creepy things. Anyways can’t wait to post pictures of our adventures in Seattle soon!